I wanted to make a page about my life and the the time I have left before my death. Where  should I start?  Many people start at birth.  I decided to start with "the now."

I don't know if I fear life, death or the unknown most. I could say I don't know if I cherish life, death or the unknown the greatest. I believe that I fear pain and/or living like a vegetable where people have to wait on me day and night are my biggest fears. I never want to be a burden on anyone else. With the pain I endure each day, I really fear living in pain worst than this. I have been in pain so bad that it seems death would be a welcome release. I have been in pain so bad where I couldn't walk, write, think or sleep. I cherish each day when I can bend over, walk or stand and nothing hurts - well at least not to bad. I cherish the days when I can think and my fingers work and I can type on the computer or write. I cherish the days when I can read and see and my head don't hurt. I cherish the days I can go all day and not have to sleep during the day from sheer exhaustion. It is really wonderful to get to enjoy the whole day.

I thank and praise those who have stood beside me and encouraged me. These pages are for all those who have made a difference in my life. I especially want to thank a few people who have helped me so much this last couple of years in particular. If your name isn't on the Hall of Fame Page, it isn't that I forgot about you. I do appreciate each one of you who love me more than you will ever know.